Late Night Ramblings...

Again.

I really do need to get out of this stupid sleep routine, but oh well.

I've been spending the past couple of days sorting out my room, and I always forget how long it takes. Even if I could do more than CFS allows me to it would take forever. I always think 'oh I just need to move a few things, tidy up a little in the wordrobe maybe, throw a few obvious things out.' But it never happens like that, before I know it, I'm sorting everything. And I really mean that. Most of the rooms been tackled now, tomorrow I tackle the top of my wordrobe. That's going to be the killer. There is a massive amount of stuff piled up there and it will take a long while, longer than I expect I'm sure, for me to go through it all. Right now I have a few piles of random stuff scattered around my room because there's no point puttin stuff away when I'll likely want to move it, or add things to it once I've sorted through the wordrobe. So for now, just a mess. A mess that will probaby triple tomorrow. Sigh. Worth it, but totally, totally draining.

My main aim for this week had been to go shopping in town one day, that day was going to be Tuesday, then Wednesday, now at the earliest it will be Thursday. If, big if, I don't end up overdoing it tomorrow. Which is highly likely. So, that probably means shopping next week instead. Amazing how simple plans end up being derailed. Well, I'd go shopping and sort out tomorrow, but I can barely do one cause of CFS, so sorting comes first. That way, if I decide I need anything, I can get it at the same time.

Thankfully, I've not been too tired to write. Though I will be if I keep being hit by midnight muses. That happened a couple nights ago. I hadn't touched SoD c11 for a couple days and I just opened it to look and see what I thought I might do the following day, instead I started writing and didn't stop for about 2 hours. Got some stuff in there that I hadn't been planning on, but I really like it, so it's a good thing. Currently have c11 in 5 different word documents though, which I simply find amusing. It's a long chapter, but not nearly long enough to warrent that! Still, it's all good. I managed to get more done again today, until I hit a block that can't be overcome with out sleep and rest, but it's coming on really well. Easier than any chapter since the first couple I think. Which is nice. That said, the next could prove tougher. I know what's going to happen in it, it's been roughly plotted, but I think I'm still going ot struggle to write it. Still, almost there. It will soon be all finished.

And in time for Spring Harvest, just like I promised Emma. Though I admit, when she said last year it had to be done so she could read it all this year, I thought 'Sure, no problem. If it takes me even close to that to get it finished, I'll be really fed up.' And here we are only a couple months from SH and it's not yet done. But it will be. It has to be. That's the deal.

Early Morning Blogging

2.40am.

Probably a bad time to blog, but I'm awake and the site I'd normally be messing around on, is down and I feel like writing. And better this than trying to write. If I start writing, it will go two ways, one where I stay up for another couple hours cause I hit on something I really like. Or I get really frustrated with it cause I can't focus on it properly. Either way, not a good idea. So I shall satisfy myself by babbling away on here for a few minutes instead. Or that's the theory. Not sure it's going to work. But oh well.

Had an odd evening the other day. Had been an okay day, nothing really happened, thought I was doing okay, turned out I wasn't. Dad snapped at me for something I didn't do and I snapped back. Haven't done that in a while. And it's been even longer since snapping back ended in me storming out and collapsing in tears. Cause: Exhaustion. Not a good sign. So when I woke up to a knock at the front door this morning (well, yesterday morning now) and then checked the clock, I shouldn't have been surprised to see that it was almost midday. Guess I really needed the sleep. Except now I feel all screwed up, not rested. I spent the rest of the day reading, just like I'd been planning, but I did so feeling flat. Kept looking outside at the snow coated world around me and just didn't care. Bad day. Need real sleep to help. Hard to sleep at a regular time when you sleep 'til midday though. Been here before, and I doubt this is the last time I'll deal with this problem.

Mostly I'm hoping tomorrow, er, today, goes better. I don't like days where nothing really affects me. And yet when they happen, I can't improve them any. The best I can do is to not let the day get any worse, which I think I managed for once. Now if I could just sleep and feel better when I wake, that'd be great.

Not sure putting 24 on was a good idea either. Could quite happily stay up and watch a couple more episodes despite it now being a little after 3am. Just not tired enough to go to bed and sleep. So, better to ramble on here about nothing and watch 24 than lie in bed unable to sleep. Think too much then. Not a good idea in this state.

Huh. Lots of bad ideas in this post. Knew it wasn't a good idea to blog now. Just don't care though.